The Morsel Returned

just a feeling... amidst the luteal phase. Beginning to witness and understand these thoughts with more clarity through the language of the body

I once fed from the surface,
half-anchored, half-here
an echo of effort,
a ghost in my gear.

But the old hands released me,
from motions worn thin.
Now the marrow speaks louder
Begin again, begin.

The morsel I could not chew
was not meat but meaning.
A promise misplaced,
a past self unweaning.

The liver lit lanterns
to cleanse what was caught,
while the pancreas whispered,
Your value’s self-taught.

My appetite faded
as the silence grew wide,
and deeper tone settled
through nerve and inside.

The skin bore the message,
a purging of shame,
as pimples declared
the end of the blame.

Now in the quiet
where hunger is still,
I taste the first bite
of a self made of will.

Rooted in purpose,
not driven by need,
I serve from devotion,
from presence—not speed.

I am currently in a deep vagal tone in a healing phase of my own. This is a poem to describe sort of what I have been moving through.

Formally this is what it is in GHK…

The potential conflicts that lead to this deep healing phase are things of this nature:

• Digestive tract: Conflict of indigestibility or morsel conflict (not being able to “digest” or integrate an experience).

• Pancreas/liver: Linked to feeling "attacked" in one’s identity or “not being good enough,” especially around nourishment, value, or familial contribution.

  • With this one I have been experiencing some detox symptoms of ‘attack conflicts’ aka pimples on the surface of the skin primarily jawline and forehead.

• Stomach: Linked to a territorial anger or fear of not having enough (especially tied to home, safety, or nurturing).

I believe I had aspects of all three of these patterns showing up and so now my body is resolving the adaptation it created for safety’s sake.

Some of the ways I am reawakening my digestive fire without overburdening my system includes herbal and mineral allies such as:

• Gentian Root or Swedish Bitters: Stimulates mild hunger and supports bile flow.

• Chamomile & Fennel Tea: Calms vagus tension and soothes the stomach.

• Dandelion Root: Liver stimulant that helps ease bile stagnation often tied to this repair phase.

• Magnesium glycinate for easeful digestion

• Lemon balm, skullcap, or holy basil—gentle adaptogens that support recalibration.

• Emphasizing warm, mineral-rich broths and stewed fruits to bridge the appetite gap gently.

Biological Decoding For Anyone Who May Resonate with this Experience.

Liver (Endodermally controlled via the brainstem):

• Conflict: Fear of starvation, not having enough, or a big morsel that cannot be assimilated (e.g., inheritance, resources, life purpose).

• Healing phase: Swelling, fatigue, skin eruptions over detox zones like the face, especially on temples and jawline.

Pancreas (New mesoderm via the cerebral medulla):

• Conflict: Abomination conflict or attack on the integrity of one’s role—usually tied to value, contribution, or shame.

• Healing: Tiredness, low appetite, skin purging (detox as part of lymphatic repair), sensitivity to sugars or fats.

Pimples/“Attack” on Face:

• Often dermal expressions mirror the repair of self-devaluation conflicts or direct attack conflicts ("I've been targeted", “my truth wasn’t received,” “I was blamed”).

• This is your skin clearing a repair message after the attack has passed. You’re processing not just a food morsel, but a soul morsel—something you finally accepted or let go.